{claustrophobic}

Have I ever told you, I can get claustrophobic?

Claustrophobia:
an abnormal fear of being closed in or being in a confined space.
thank you Dictionary.com

But, I'm not that claustrophobia that you're thinking of.
Its of a different kind.
A kind where life is closing in,
and I can't go anywhere.
I get agitated, and then anxiety settles in.
I'm staying in the same motion of life,
never moving, barely breathing,
walking day in and day out as a mechanical robot.

You know what cures my, so it may seem, life claustrophobia?

Freedom,
excitement,
relaxation,
no worries.
Things that take me away from the boringly, depressing routine of my everyday life.
Things that set me as free as a bird, balloon, airplane.
But, as it seems, I'm rarely getting any dosage of the antidote.
I'm having a hard time breathing in another day,
and when I exhale, that day is gone.
Inhale,
exhale,
everyday.

maybe my wishes on stars and 11:11 will come true this week,
or next since it will be spring break.
Just maybe,
because sooner or later,
I will need a break from breathing.