just a picture I drew to commemoration this beautiful day.

:)

{sigh}

no, we didn't see woman in black.

bummer........

oh well. :S

we did watch Breaking Dawn,
and then we watched Mulan,
and I fell asleep.
:/ good thing we didn't go to the movie! :D

{weekend}

This week
oh boy :)

my sister and I are going to be together WITHOUT my parents.
can you say "partey"?
This weekend is going to be amazingly crazy since most of our diet is going to be fast food, freezer dinners, and candy! ;)
Oh yeah, consisitng of Breaking Dawn and Woman in Black. :D

haha, oh my sister is crazy.
Love ya Weesh.

{starting fresh}

Good day on Saturday.
Excellent day on Saturday.
A "breath easy" Saturday.
Haven't had one of those days for a while.

Laurels took me out to breakfast Saturday morning at IHOP and it was super yummy.
( I do love delicious blueberry pancakes!  )
And the rest of the day I relaxed and cleaned and got ready for the evening.
Kensy, Jessica and Sydney came over and it was the bomb-diggity!
We spent most of the time talking until I suggested that we'd better start the movie before it was too late.
We laughed and ate pizza and drank pop and ate cake and ice cream.
It was just perfect.
I was so happy. :)
And then after we dropped them home,
I plopped myself on my bed and fell asleep.
ahhhh, felt SO good!

I am so excited for what 16 is going to bring!

.....but lets handle driving by myself first instead of dating.... ;)
one step at a time.
and, I'm not particularly interested in boys at the moment since I'm still mad at one in particular.
♥/Kayla

{food is my valentine}

Just kidding about yesterday's post.
I said Valentines day was suckish.
Nah, it improved.
I got half of a Cafe Rio burrito and salad.
Both pork.
Both delicious.
I could have not been happier or more in love. :)

This Saturday.....
:D
things are changing.
.........16..............

{it's sore}

You know
this is really dumb to say,
but you can't put a band aid on a broken heart and expect it to heal completely.
Because there's going to be a scar still on it.
And you might but a "smiley sticker" on it, so that people will notice the sticker instead of the scar.
But only you can feel the true pain.

Now that THAT's been said, here's this:
Honestly, Valentine's day really stinks.
:\
Yeah, you know, it's just not as fun as when you have someone to share it with.
And you watch SO much PDA in the halls of your cramped high school.
And you see the poor girls lugging around enormous teddy bears and a bouquet and balloons with a love sick boyfriend trailing beside them.
It's hard to watch the sad, lonely girls watching couples bounce happily by, because you say to yourself,
"Hey, I know how you feel."

It's hard to watch the guy you used to like talk and flirt with one of your friends in front while you stand awkwardly behind.
And it's super hard not trying to think that ugly though, "What if nothing had changed? Would things be the same?"
Yeah, I pushed that out of my thoughts too often today.

I am so happy school is over so I could come home and throw up from all the mushiness that was at school.  ;)

Not-So-Happy Single Awareness Day.
aka.
S.A.D.    

{exercise and love}

No
Just in case you read the title
this is NOT
I repeat, NOT a post about how I love exercise.
Just thought I should clear that up.
:)

Today, I stayed after school to go to a chemistry group with my friends.
.....
There was only Maddi.
Thee end.
After a while I got bored and pulled the lame, "Oh, I think my mom's outside and I need to be somewhere." trick.

There was no mom.
And and the only place I needed to be was in my bed at home.

When I left the school, I was like, "Crap. I really wish I had my license and a car so I could drive home."
But I kept walking,
and walking,
and walking.
And after a while, my back started to hurt.
But I walked past a small stream,
and the gurgling and bubbling of it made me a little happier.
I continued walking, thinking that it was an okay walk, until I hit the busy street behind the rec center leading to the library.
I'm thinking to myself, "Help."
There were so many cars, I was just waiting to see a cat run past me and get squished in the traffic or something.
(sorry, that's a little gruesome)
And so, with a plea, I quickly said a small prayer in my heart, praying that Heavenly Father would let the cars slow down because I REALLY needed to cross the street.
I ended my prayer, and almost immediately, the flow of cars stopped.
There was a gap.
There was my chance!
Dashing across the long road, I stopped on the other side, breathing heavily, and did a small victory dance while thanking my Heavenly Father that I didn't become the next road kill on the street.
Continuing my way up the steep hill, I was able to pass another street safely and enter into the cemetery.
I slowed my pace a little, and took time to look at the marble and granite headstones.
There was a soft peace in my heart as I looked at all the names written on those who had already passed before.
There was a small breeze, and it felt more like fall than winter.
I really needed to sit down and rest my back because it was hurting pretty bad, so I found a bench positioned perfectly under a very old tree.
Practically hobbling, I slung my backpack off of my shoulder and sat down on the bench.
Breathing in the cool air, I felt a lot better. I slid off the bench and sat in the nook at the base of the tree.
It felt like a movie or something, where you see someone eating an apple under a tree and reading a book. Huh, that kind of sounds like Frodo Baggins.
Uh, *cough* anyway!

Oh man, this post is going nowhere. :S

After a while of sitting under the tree, my back felt so much better and I shrugged my backpack back on and continued on home, looking at the dates and names, saying small prayers for the ones that I saw, and stopping to briefly say "hi" to a close family friend.

I really wished that I could have stayed in the cemetery longer, because the peace that I felt was enormous, and the relaxation feeling was incredible. I highly recommend, if you want to go somewhere quiet, go to either a small park or a stream or the cemetery. Seriously.

Anyway, this is a really random post.
*sigh* I need to have more excitement.