Whoa buddy. It's been a while! I need to get back in the swing of things.

So, this post, I'm really bored, so I am going to tell you things about me that I would normally be embarrassed about. But tonight I am not.

So listen well, because this is the only post you're gonna get with me going all out.

Ladies and gentlemen, this is Kayla Higgins on the Secrets Of Being a Geek.

yes, I am a HUGE fan of Dr. Who

otherwise known as the Doctor

This happened only a couple of weeks ago. Maybe it was all the Pinterest pins on him that got me curious. I don't know. But what I do know is that I love this man, David Tennant, and I love the show.

I have my mom and sister come out and say just how weird I am and how weird the show is. But I don't care. I just know that this show is one of the best things ever! And I'm a lover. I'm still learning new things from this show, so I'm not exactly a fan girl-knowitall person, but just give me a few more weeks, and don't be surprised if i walk into school with red converse sneakers and a bow tie. 

I LOVE Harry Potter.

I've loved it ever since I've seen the first movie when I was, what, 5 or 6? It was the greatest thing ever, and I've seen every movie since. My favorite book is by far the last one, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I love the characters, plots, actors, movies, I LOVE IT ALL!! I'll quote it frequently, but honestly, nobody gets it.

Whatever. I still love it. 

Yes. I love this even more than Harry Potter.

Because not only me, but my family is fanatically in love with this movie.

We love it so much in fact, that we watch the extended edition of each movie EVERY SINGLE YEAR. and we never get bored. In fact, we just finished it last week. And it still ended amazingly. And I still cried. But can I just say how happy i was when I found out that they were making a Hobbit? And can I tell you how FREAKING EXCITED I AM THAT THE HOBBIT IS COMING OUT NEXT MONTH?!?!?!?!?

yes. I am very excited. 

I love this movie and the books so much, that I can quote the entire movies. Each one. So burn.

Okay here is another one of my loves. I love superheros. I really do. I love DC and Marvel comic heroes. I love Avengers and The Justice League. They both melt me to the core. DC- I am an avid lover of Superman. Marvel- I love Captain America. Sing it with me ladies! They are just two of the best men in the world. Ever since I was a little kid, I imagined myself as a super hero. Wonder Woman, Supergirl, Catwoman (not exactly a super hero, but whatever). I loved to pretend that I had supernatural powers! They kept my childhood years an adventure.  

And last of all, I love video games. I mean, I like way super cool video games. I'm not into the whole guns and guts games, but sometimes, there are just some games that I love, like Mario Bros or Mariokart, or other games.

But there is one game that I am obsessed with, and I love it. 

That's right.

I'm a Legend of Zelda nerd.

Get over it.

Or join me.

This is the one thing that kind of embarrasses me, because I feel like nobody I know has played this game. And anybody that does know this game says it's stupid. 

But I don't.

And if you say that it does, I'll probably go all quiet, but in my head I'll be all like,"I will take my Master Sword and I will cut you." 

The end.

So now you know a little more about me. 

And what I like.

And what I am totally obsessed about.

I'm also obsessed with Disney, Big Bang Theory, Nancy Drew games, and Once Upon a Time.

If you ever feel like you need to talk to me about these things, I will gladly be open to discussion.

Unless you're coming to mock me.

Then go away.

OR HERE'S A CHALLENGE!!!!!!!!
post on your blog or tell me things you are obsessed about and wouldn't normally tell others.
Its loads of fun,
and it would make me feel better.
:)

{shattered glass}

Watch.
Stop.
Drop.
The heart that was once at the top of my chest plummets to the bottom of my stomach.
Empty is the right word to use, my heart.
It sits on the top of my intestines with no life, like an empty glass jar.
There's nothing in it. Not at this moment. There's no feeling.
It's as if ice had settled in and frozen the heart, causing it to go numb.
All I can do is stare- wide eyed, and no expression. I can't believe it. Never had it crossed my mind. It didn't make sense. What was that? My mind scrambles to find any logic, but that too has fled. Its just me and an empty body staring at the computer monitor.
I feel as though my vision is fading, like a black hole is starting to form at the point where my eyes are looking, but something catches my attention.
I look down at my chest, just staring, because I can feel something. If I could listen carefully, I could hear the small sounds of *click, click*. It scared me. I put all my focus on where the sound was coming from, and then it made sense.
It was that glass jar in my chest.
It was cracking.
I could feel it as the veins of the cracks wound their way up to the top of the jar, creating jagged lines and cruel features.
Then, slowly, the jar began to fall apart. The shards that had once made a beautiful jar were falling away from each other  and there was nothing that could be done. Nothing could repair it. And all I could do was switch my gaze from my cracking, aching chest, and look back at the pictures.
With each click of the mouse to the next picture of him with her, a jagged piece of the jar crumbled.
What cruel and sick sort of person would do this? Why would someone want to put this much pain on a person? Why am I even caring? This shouldn't be affecting me, but why is it?
But these questions would come later, because for now, I was in pain as the tears slowly caressed down my cheeks.

{take it from the wiser}

Oh the tricky heart. Always getting in the way. Your brain, always the experienced one, tries to explain to your punk of a heart to stay away from the dark alleys of "feeeelings". Your brain knows the better, and it's trying to keep your heart from getting hurt or broken. And every time the heart comes home from parties and is drunk with happiness, the brain knows whats going to happen. Of course, even though the heart had a little fun for a while, and that it wanted to make the intoxicated feeling of love stay, there is always the hangover, and the puking, and the awful retching of and coughing of hate and regret. And all this while, the brain keeps telling the heart that it knew better, that it told it not to; but the brain rubs the hearts back and tries to make the heart feel better, and later, it will feel better, thanks to that wise brain.

People think that the heart is the one that has feelings, but the brain does too. It feels sorry and compassion for you, and it's always logging into a notebook of all the stupid things you do so that it can help you remember the consequences of what happened last time. And this is why the brain would make so much of a better heart for me.  

{evolution}

How weird to think that I've grown up so much . Its actually a little cool.

I love to think about all the memories that I have. I, personally, have a pretty good memory when it comes to things that I liked or life memories. Unfortunately, I have the hardest time remembering things for tests. Weird.
But its funny to see myself ten years ago. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to my innocent state, when I was forced to take naps and was given snacks and I had to eat my dinner. I wish I could go back where we could pretend to be adults and that we could play with whomever because it didn't matter. I wish this, but it can't happen, because reality has a way of making evolution real, and that sometime or another, you have to grow up.

{fun at the carnival}

So on Friday, I got a text in my ceramics class, but since my hands had clay all over them, I couldn't get my phone out immediately. Not even three seconds later, I get another text, and right after that I get ANOTHER one! By this time I'm freaking out and thinking that someone had died or something, so I try wiping my dirty hands on my apron and pull out my phone. All texts are from family members, and now I'm really freaking out! But it turns out that two of my sisters wanted to know if I wanted to join them with going to the Utah State Fair with them, and my mom just wished me luck on my test in the next period.

So of course I went to the fair, and it was so much fun!

my sister gave my nephew some containers with her medicines. He shook it around and was really happy!

 they had a whole barn dedicated to just pigeons. 

....only in Utah...

once you've seen one, you've seen them all...

an ugly pigeon...random!

 my nephew Ethan was so cute while we looked at the animals

 But he didn't like the cows that much. I don't blame him! They kindof freak me out too.

 Wilbur!

 people are so creative!

 my future prom date duct tape dress. Challenge accepted!!

 There was even a small circus act there! The guy who was performing was really good!

{green with envy}

I don't want it to effect me. I don't want to seem angry or mean. But let me tell you, I feel as though I've been tricked. Actually, this is the second time I've been tricked. And I hate it. Most of the time I wish he would just go away, or that I could wipe my memory clean of him. I hate going throughout my day happy, and then a thought of him pops in my head. It makes my heart squeeze tight and hurt. It makes me cringe. Because I know I've been fooled once again. When he said hi to me in the halls, my mind said, " maybe." But, after looking at things, there has been someone else. Not me. And that was the real crusher, because she looks like a nice girl who is beautiful. I wish I could be like, "oh wow! She looks like a playa!" or "no, not that girl." I hate her, but there's nothing wrong. So I just look as my heart tenses, and drops, and it feels like it will be that way for a while.
But I still have the greatest friends. And they make me smile. And that's what I like, so it will just have to do for a while.

{yawn}

Oh school.
I wish you'd be over and done with.
and it's only the 3rd week of school...

....it feels like it's been years.

I've been closing my eyes in my classes lately.
This is not a good sign.
Because this means it's going to be a very
very
very
long
year.

:S