So for the last couple of weeks? Months? Eh, whatever.
For awhile, to those who have been reading my posts and commenting on them.
I thank you so very much!
They are all so heartwarming, and I love it when I get feedback and comments.
The only problem??
I can't type back...

What????

I've been trying to type responses back, but for some reason my computer won't let me.
Trust me my friends, I've tried everything.
So it would just tickle me pink if you continue commenting or writing little notes on my blog.
It really does make me want to keep writing. :)
But I apologize that I don't reply.
Just imagine some sarcastic, sweet and loving remark that I would say back to you. Okay?
Thanks! I love you all!

{slightly awkward}

There is a guy who I really don't like.

But I used to like.

But now I don't.

Make sense?

But there are still those awkward moments:

eye contact that was SOO not intentional,

passing by the person,

seeing the person coming down the hallway so you quickly whip out your phone and pretend like your texting someone really important.

Yeah, I admit I do that. Whatever.

But today, as I was walking to my fourth period class with my friends,

I can see him standing next to a locker.

And he was on my side of the lane.

So I start hitting my friends hand to get her attention.

She sees him and, suddenly, whips me around to her other side so I don't have to walk past him.

When I was pulled to the other side of her, a huge group of people come through and pushed my friend, who  pushed me, and that sent me into a locker: total body slam. 

And being my clumsy self, I slam into the locker and almost fall on the ground and give a loud shriek, but lean into my friend, causing her to sidestep, almost causing us to fall. 

But we didn't thank goodness, because this all happened in less than 5 seconds. 

And it all happened right in front of this person I didn't like.

And my face went bright red, because it was all so embarrassingly funny. And I couldn't stop laughing like an idiot for some reason.

Honestly, why did my clumsy footwork have to happen then? 

Makes me look like an idiot. 

Haha.

Whatever. Maybe I should just stop trying to act cool.

Wow, this post isn't making any sense. But I thought it was a funny story.

Okay, maybe it was just funny to me...

Yeah. That's probably it. Ha!  

{to you}

To all the girls with tears,
to the ones who hate,
to the ones that regret,

to the girls that cry because it hurts,
to the ones that have been broken,
the the ones that have been bruised,
to the ones who have broken trust,

to the girls with a sadness that can be unbearable,
to the ones that have experienced heartbreak at too young an age,
to the ones that should have never been hurt.

I'm deeply sorry.
You're not alone.
And you are still loved.

If you need to talk to someone,
I would love to sit and talk to you,
whomever you are.

Have a good Valentine's Day.

{sky above the clouds}

Lately, I have felt really stressed:

class registration,

college decisions,

future occupation disasters,

and scads of other things

mainly on the subject of who I am and what I want to become.

But on Sunday, Heavenly Father helped me realize that He's still there.

I never have to walk alone in the fog.

He's always holding my hand.

Even though I don't have a clear pathway, at least he gave me a flashlight so I can see where I can walk.

And He gave me a tissue and a reassuring hug letting me know He still loves me. 

It really meant a lot.

Sometimes I forget that there is sky.

I just focus on the fog.

I freak out, and I'm looking side to side, but I'm clueless of where I'm going.

It's only when I look up that I realize that the sky is still there.

That brilliant blue sky.

And I put my faith that even though there can be a temporary fog,

there's still a brilliant blue sky, full of beauty, peace, and goodness.

And then I think to myself.....

what a wonderful world. 

{nightmare in real life}

Last night, I had a dream it was summer.
And I was running through a lush, green field with no shoes and a shirt and shorts.
And it was sunny.
And I remember thinking,"I'm so happy winter's over!"
And I felt so warm.

I woke up to my dad's snow blower.

Nightmare confirmed as a reality,
and dream confirmed as fake.

Yeah, thanks Utah.
Thanks a lot.
FOR NOTHING!!!
Geeze...

P.s. Janelle.
I like your hair.
Mind if I try it on mine? I'm just really jealous of yours.

{whaaaat}

Here is the reason why I hate January.
I get bored easily.
Like every second I'm going around thinking, "I'm so boooooored."
I'm just bored with getting up for school ridiculously early,
treking outside in -2 degrees so I don't miss the bus,
going to school and trying to not fall asleep,
coming home and staring at Pinterest until I'm like, "oh yeah, I have homework"
and by then its dinner time
and after that I do homework
and then I go to bed.

maybe, if I'm lucky, I get a nap snuck in there somewhere.

but that is mainly my routine these last couple of weeks,
maybe even months!
I just want some pizzazz, some sparks, some fireworks!
Something that makes me really happy.
Something I can look forward to.

But for now, I guess I'll live with being bored until I see the tulips starting to bloom.

Yay for spring.
Boo for winter.
P.s., my ADD can't handle being bored. So I end up doing something totally random and stupid most of the time. Whatever. It's fine.

{why is it just sooo good?}

So, remember my post of my obsessions?
Remember my last thing I said I was madly obsessed with?
And I didn't know if I could get anymore obsessed?
Well, I played another game of it over Christmas break.
And let me tell you,
I am more obsessed with it than I thought I could be.
*sigh*
I say to myself, "why? WHY??!!"
and then, after sitting there thinking why,
I come to a conclusion...
I just freakin love it.

so if you don't like it,
too bad.
I don't have time to hear your hates.
I'm too busy saving Hyrule.
Excuse me, while I ride on past you.